Read my diary!

So.. The last 24 hours has gotten me' thinking about trust. An interesting topic that's for sure. This is basically set out like an open diary, whoever I invite to read it can and shall read it whenever they wish. I feel like I'm taking a risk here, I'm being honest and opening myself up to you and in turn I could be judged, or taken the wrong way?? Who knows.. I've always, ALWAYS enjoyed writing.. I believe at one time in my life that it almost certainely was the primary way I could express myself.. At age 14 I remember having diaries and writing journals coming out my ears.. There was one for poetry, one for songs I'd written, one between myself and the boyfriend, quite a few between myself and my friends, group letter books.. There was a big cardboard box I had, filled with loose letters, conversations I had cheekily had in class with my disinterested friends (haha got to love Remembering those).. And of course.. THE DIARY!! So as a young person, the owner of a diary, with crazy, intense feelings absolutely burning inside me', what one healthy thing am I going to do about it?? Just write, write to my hearts content.. And swear and scribble.. And vent vent vent!! Lol. We all know how hard life is as a teenager!! I was a real dreamer of a teenager, so I would say half the stuff written by myself in my journals were actually more like fiction. Maybe as a wish that it would be real?? But the point I guess I'm trying to make is that this healthy habit of writing things down.. Is it so healthy when our privacy is not respected? What if a random person came along and started reading your diary.. All those scribbles, the vents, the swearing, the dreams, the fantasies, the TRUTH!!! (argh cringe!) I guess I can reveal now, that I most definately have been in this situation. When you bare your absolute soul and someone raids through and reads all your private thoughts.. Takes it all the wrong way.. And punishes you for it. This person was not to know that these things I talked openly about to myself were just thoughts, dreams, ideas.. They didn't 'actually' happen. Worst position ever! It made me' feel violated. Anyway, the question I have for you is.. Would YOU ever read someones private journal?? Your son's, daughter's, partner's??? I have vowed to never. Never, ever, EVER! And that is a solid promise that I have made to my children. They will be encouraged to write and document their feelings but they will be able to do so with no fear of it being invaded. I think we all need a space we can vent, it's perfectly healthy, to take that away from someone is to force them to bottle feelings, squash them down, damage their creativity, block them emotionally.. All stuff I am passionately against for my own kids. But anyway, I have not been able to write honestly for a very very long time. And even in this blog, which is honest, I feel I would be holding back at least partially.. That fear once your thoughts have been invaded and rubbished, forever lives in you..